This feeling. This narrowness. This inner fullness.

Everywhere people, I go around in circles, can you do that, yes can you do that and can you still do this here… wait a minute…but here are already thousand things I have to do. Hurry up, go faster! Please hold me, it all comes over me, it floods me, it constricts me, I can no longer breathe, please stop! More and even more … stop! Please stop! Hold me! everything is blurred …

white …

there it is … this emptiness, so close to reach … How wonderful, look at this freedom, it feels so easy, look how beautiful it is … I can run, I can turn, I can dance and nobody tells me what to do …

I just lie here with my eyes closed and enjoy doing nothing, being alone, letting everything go… organizing my thoughts, feeling myself, living … simply indescribable …

I slowly open my eyes … and what happens ?! Everything is back …

Overcrowded, overloaded, cramped, too much, lost in the flood …

Desire.